physicianly

It wasn’t until I was 28 years old that I first really felt failure. It stopped me dead in my tracks, like a deer in headlights. It was a horrible feeling. It felt like the worst thing imaginable at the time. But in hindsight, it was one of the most formative experiences of my career… Continue reading On failing MRCP PACES

Working as a junior doctor in a busy surgical department in central London a few years ago was immensely rewarding. My colleagues and I got to see – and assist in the operating theatre with – cutting edge vascular surgery procedures using the latest devices and technologies, rubbing (sterile) shoulders with the who’s who of… Continue reading I want to bake cakes

I can’t help but feel guilty. Guilty that I’m looking after relatively stable patients, whereas our colleagues on ICU are at the coal face, with beds at capacity, patients intubated with Covid-19.  When work started doing mass antibody testing amongst staff in June 2020, I eagerly awaited my results. I was checking my phone intermittently… Continue reading Guilt

Just yesterday we learnt that we would be redeployed to join the fight against COVID-19. People use COVID-19 and coronavirus interchangeably, without much regard for the differences between them. For the most part thats okay because it’s easy enough to know what is meant by them. But if we’re being pedantic (which I am) then… Continue reading And so it begins…